Fear.

“The fears we don’t face become our limits.”

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I don’t know where that quote came from.  I saw it online one day and liked it.  I thought of it after I took these photos.  I am terrified of spiders.  To me, they are one of the creepiest things ever.  Yet, at the same time I am fascinated by them.  How they work, the art they can make.  All while scaring the hell out of me!

But we face our fears.  Sometimes from a distance (like a zoom lens…so I didn’t have to get too close) and sometimes head on.  When I first started homeschooling I had so much fear to go along with my excitement.  It was hard for me to explain, and probably still is.  I am still afraid some days that I may screw it up.  I may not give them everything they need.  But that fear is just a lie.  I can and will give them what they need and more.  I know these kids better than anyone.  I know what their strengths and weaknesses are.  I know areas they need a lot of work and I know areas they excel in.  I see them growing into kind, compassionate human beings.  I am pretty proud to even have the smallest part in that.  Nevertheless the fear is still there sometimes.  And I power through it.  I don’t let it take over.  I will not be limited in what I can do because of it.

Last year, we made the decision to go ahead and take the kids out of public school and homeschool before I knew a single other person that did it.  Sure, I knew of people online, on Instagram that did it.  But I didn’t know anyone personally.  I came across a woman online, and immediately recognized her husband.  It turns out, he had went to school with my husband.  So, even though I don’t feel comfortable introducing myself and making new friends, I put myself out there and contacted her.  Now, we go to nature walks and field trips with a great group of women and their children.  Because I didn’t let fear overcome me.  I took that first step.  It wasn’t easy for me.  I am a fairly social person and enjoy friendships, but I’m not good at taking that first step.  I am more of an introvert.   But taking that first step led me to where I am today.  With other like-minded mamas to be there to support and help each other on this journey.   Sometimes it can feel like we are almost alone on this different path we’ve chosen, but these women make us know we are not.  We may have chosen the road less taken, but it’s made us stronger and we are learning more because of it.

Whatever you have going on…whether it is homeschooling, a career, sharing your art or passion with others….don’t let fear stop you.  Let it be what pushes you forward.  Your gifts need to be shared  in some way.  Whether you have a business or just like to post your pictures to inspire others.  Whether you  have been homeschooling for a couple years or ten, share with others.  It may help them to overcome a fear or two.

Love, Jess

 

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